The Joy of Writing

It feels good to be writing poetry again...5 new poems since the 10th...not bad. I'd forgotten how much joy I get from writing. The other poems and couple ramblings were old...but the ones since the 10th (the most recent 5) are new...I posted them right after I wrote them. 

I still want to find my folder with all my old poems and post some of my favorites from those...I have no idea where it could be, though...looked through a lot of boxes and piles of papers in the general area where I last remember seeing it...and been trying to think if there's someplace else it might be...the thing must be 3 inches thick...has stuff going back to when I first started writing when I was only 14-years-old...and, as I recall, some of it was pretty good. I'm sure it'll show up...probably put it somewhere "safe" and the location will come to me in the middle of the night out of the blue. 

But, I digress...writing again has been somewhat therapeutic...getting some of the thoughts that haunt me into written form has been liberating. I love the "art" of poetry...that, oftentimes, different people can get different meanings from it, much like is the case with visual art. While all of my poetry comes from the heart, it doesn't always pertain to me personally as I sometimes write from the perspective of people in my life that I'm close to that are going through something...and, if it does pertain to me, it doesn't necessarily pertain to anything going on in my life right now, but could be about something I've dealt with or felt in the past that I'm still coming to grips with. 

I've had some pretty bad relationships and seen and dealt with some kind of messed up stuff over the years. I've been lied to, promised things that were never delivered, mistreated, taken advantage of, and taken for granted...it's made me suspicious and jaded and, since turning 40 last year, I've been trying to come to grips with my life...who I was before, who I've become, who I am, who I want to be...I'm a work in progress. I've been trying to figure out what went wrong in past relationships and why we weren't happy and what I want in future relationships. You'll see references to being loved in the same way as is loved, honesty, trust, etc. This is, of course, due to not having those things in past relationships and being things that I want in the future. 

As I continue with my search for myself, you'll probably see some changes in the tone and subject matter of my poems. This is a journey I embarked on alone, but in which I'm hoping you'll join me and get some joy and insight in doing so...